First off, THANK YOU to anyone who offered advice and prayers. Just knowing that people were out there to listen helped me feel a little better.
I'm not where I want to be yet, nor am I close to where I had been before, but I've started reading some of the Bible again and I've been researching some new prayers and ordering some free books and prayer cards online. A lot of people in different communities urged me to find new ways to pray. Best of all, I'm no longer angry with God. I have some work to do, but for now, I'm ok.